tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8505688094681097602024-03-13T08:37:34.233-07:00Entering the zone of a hazardous doc...Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-25680077319007343932007-05-04T06:12:00.000-07:002007-05-04T07:39:42.327-07:00Written ExamAll i can remember is the stress that i went through.. Everyday was the same routine.. Wake up at 6 , after Subuh instead of going back to bed , had to force myself to stay away from the bed.. have breakfast watch a bit of TV ( max 15min ) just to give myself some motivation .. then straight to books and notes till lunch.. allocated time to rest is only 1 hour , that is to cook and eat.. then slept at 11 or 12.. The routine is a way to train my body and mind to face a greater challenge during the exam week especially the clinical exam..<br /><br />Time was very tight.. I kept telling myself there's no time to waste.. so many things to read and revise.. and this is the only time that i would do such thing... i thought i was going maaddd!!!<br /><br />It's all about discipline and study smart.. there is no point of studying so hard that you compromise your health...<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">The Written Exam<br />Medicine - </span>I am so glad that almost everything that I focused on came out in the exam.. because of the rush of ideas , time was very very tight for me!!! my fingers hurt!!!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Surgery - </span>Enteral feeding?!!? wadeheeell.. I didnt read anything about it!!! It's time to ramble around it! hahahah.. There was so many things to write but so lil time to spend!!!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Psych MCQ - </span>This was a funny exam.. no one was fully prepared for it.. i had to force myself reading the book 2 days before exam.. it was soo tough that i dunno if i could pass it!<br /><br />Ahhh 3 down and 2 more to go!!!!<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /></span>Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-37650673836001676542007-03-13T15:59:00.000-07:002007-03-13T16:18:06.352-07:00Cause of DeathWhile waiting around at Gogarty Ward for the next tutorial , Robert told me that the lady that I saw few days before was dying .. She has Cancer of Head of Pancreas (diagnosed in July 06) , which obstructing her common bile duct.. According to her history , she went through quite alot last year , from being severely jaundice to ERCP-induced perforation of retropharyngeal pouch to ARF .. u name it..<br /><br />When I took the history , she was very pleasant and she was not in pain or anything . In fact , she thought that she should not be in the hospital . It was only when her nurse and daughter-in-law thought that she looked jaundice , they decided to take her to the hospital . That nite i read in the book , 95% of this kind of cancer would die within a year . I thought she was doing well...<br /><br />I presented the history to her doctor and she said that they were not doing anything on her at the moment because they wanted to wait till the intrahepatic duct are dilated so that they could do PTC (Percutaneous Transheatic Cholangiogram) to relieve the jaundice . I didnt see her after that and i think many student went to see her afterwards .<br /><br />Finally on that day , i saw her daughter-in-law outside of the room with a guy which maybe the son and they looked quite sad. The curtains were pulled out around her bed and everything was just so quiet in the room...<br /><br />Later in the afternoon , I walked pass the ward and saw the bed was gone ...Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-72672554325197180102007-03-08T12:21:00.000-08:002007-03-08T13:04:19.689-08:00Roughly a month before Final ExamThe tension rises every day.. and the winter vomiting bug strikes again.. loads of ward in Tallaght Hospital have been closed due to the outbreak.. and the final med students are desperate to see as many patients as they can!<br /><br />Luckily the surgical wards are still open to everyone.. I tried to see at least 3 patients a day with satoko or maybe other ppl in my group.. So far I've seen quite interesting cases.. A lady with ERCP-induced pancreatitis , 2 patients with intermittent claudication , some gallbladder problem and IBD and many more..<br /><br />And these patients are in the hospital for quite some time.. so everyday , i would bump into one or 2 patients that i've seen before.. and its a nice feeling when they acknowledge you when you see them at the corridor.. and they would wish us good luck for the exam.. we really need that , badly!!<br /><br />When i was doing medicine , me jean and satoko went to see a middle aged guy with UC.. I'd say he's not too bad with an attractive accent.. however satoko didnt agree with us.. hehe.. we did maintain a good rapport with him.. and last monday , me and satoko got on the same lift with him.. couldnt believe he's still in the hospital! He said hi to us and i asked him how's everything and all.. It felt amazing when someone like that still remembers us ,the medical student who didnt contribute anything to help him with his disease and yet still get the acknowledgment..<br /><br />These little things are really a motivation for me to finish my study , pass my final exams (hopefully with some honors!) and be able to wear "Dr. Shaz Shaharan" badge :)Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-15731489206404711892007-03-02T09:11:00.000-08:002007-03-02T09:29:54.311-08:00This is So True!<table width="350" align="center" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"><tr><td bg align="center" style="color:#DDDDDD;"><span style="'color:black;font-family:Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><b>You Are 28% Shy</b></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#EEEEEE"><center><img src="http://images.blogthings.com/howshyareyouquiz/shy-2.jpg" height="100" width="100" /></center><span style="color:#000000;"><br />You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.<br />You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.</span></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/howshyareyouquiz/">How Shy Are You?</a></div><br /><br />It's amazing how people change over time.. I used to be very shy ( i know Im gonna get lotsa slagging after this! ) but over these years , i realized that there is no point of being too shy.. I'm just gonna lose out if i keep being shy . No doubt there are certain times and situation that pull me back but Ive learned to put a straight face and get on with it! hehe.. Lets cherish my achievement : I've presented in front of the whole people in my class twice , I volunteered to approach patients if I go with my friends , I asked more questions and try my best to answer questions in group discussion , My classmates know me better than other Malaysians , well maybe they know Jia too.. hehe<br /><br />Overall , I'm much more interested in meeting and talking to new people .. There is so much you can learn from others , the good and the bad. Just like the Malay saying , yang baik jadikan teladan , yang jahat jadikan sempadan . ( Literally translated to - make good things as examples, and the bad things as boundries . Anyone has better translation? heheh )Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-81865871171973556222007-03-02T09:06:00.000-08:002007-03-02T09:06:55.209-08:00The Keys To My Heart ??Thanx to Shafeez for sending the link , it forced me to get up from my nap.. And the result is quite accurate !<br /><br /><table align="center" border="0" cellpadding="2" cellspacing="0" width="350"><tbody><tr><td bg="" style="color: rgb(238, 233, 233);" align="center"><span style=""><b>The Keys to Your Heart</b></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#fffafa"><center><img src="http://images.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/heart.jpg" height="100" width="100" /></center><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><br />You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.<br /><br />In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.<br /><br />You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.<br /><br />You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.<br /><br />Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.<br /><br />Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.<br /><br />You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.<br /><br />In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.</span></td></tr></tbody></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?</a></div><br /><br />Have to be self centred now coz of the exam! hehehe..Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-21279881161157315022007-03-02T08:57:00.000-08:002007-03-02T09:03:55.522-08:00From Winter Vomiting Virus to Flu VirusThis is what happened when I have been sick for the whole week! Well the virus has certainly ruined my weekend in Eindhoven.. and now I'm doing all these quiz..<br /><br />What a surprising result !<br /><br /><table width="350" align="center" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="2"><tr><td bg align="center" style="color:#DDDDDD;"><span style="'color:black;font-family:Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif;"><b>You Are Barney</b></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="#EEEEEE"><center><img src="http://images.blogthings.com/thesimpsonspersonalitytest/barney.jpg" height="100" width="100" /></center><span style="color:#000000;"><br />You could have been an intellectual leader...<br /> <br />Instead, your whole life is an homage to beer<br /><br />You will be remembered for: your beautiful singing voice and your burps<br /><br />Your life philosophy: "There's nothing like beer to give you that inflated sense of self-esteem."</span></td></tr></table><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/thesimpsonspersonalitytest/">The Simpsons Personality Test</a></div><br /><br />Definitely my burps! hehe..Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-52811878392629869462007-02-11T14:51:00.000-08:002007-02-11T15:40:35.305-08:00The Coldest Day in DublinThe day after my birthday , it was the coldest day ever.. it was really cold that even Dublin was snowing!! not just the suburban and mountain area .. even in the city itself!! very miserable day so decided to stay home and relax.. it was the day I spent to learn to accept that Im already 25!<br /><br />Anyway, here's sumthing that cheered me up on that day... forwarded by k.laili from her irish colleague..<br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXAMpIMb3EOmeHPWO2GLh2UDtHqXLx3zZo5VJRv3tDhclOknhKJ09QOjZqRrT-_W7FdBrr2wV13vmETJHf4elJry3IjC6HYP9-dZ9pBtwWCSrChT50A9lDBEaqJ18yOxrefKbEUCpdy6w6/s1600-h/snow_in_dublin.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXAMpIMb3EOmeHPWO2GLh2UDtHqXLx3zZo5VJRv3tDhclOknhKJ09QOjZqRrT-_W7FdBrr2wV13vmETJHf4elJry3IjC6HYP9-dZ9pBtwWCSrChT50A9lDBEaqJ18yOxrefKbEUCpdy6w6/s400/snow_in_dublin.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5030426216954250434" border="0" /></a><br /><br />hehehe.. funny irish!Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-37193724330527004512007-02-07T15:55:00.000-08:002007-02-08T04:29:26.924-08:00It's BIRTHDAY tiiimeeee!!!Finally , its the time of the year.. 25 years ago , i was born at 9.20 am on the same date as today.. whoaa it sounds like the starting of a folk story... sounds so ancient :/<br /><br />Since it's such a significant number , I decided to have a nice dinner at <a href="http://www.yamamorinoodles.ie/">Yamamori Restaurant</a> with my friends.. I've been planning for this for quite sometime ago.. just to make sure that it's gonna be sumthing that i would remember of as i get older eventually ..<br /><br />Fortunately, it turned out really well!! All my 12 guests came along .. so we had a full house!! and very loud too! No wonder they put us at the back of the restaurant , near the kitchen.. hehe.. but it was a really nice corner wif comfy couch :)<br /><br />Oh there was a huge surprise!! Suddenly all the lights went off and there was my cake with candles!!! it was really overwhelming! Cheers to everybody !<br /><br />Btw , the waiter had to go across the street to get some extra whipped cream to eat wif the chocolate cake..but it was worth the waiting!<br /><br />Here's the <a href="http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/shaharas7/my_photos">pictures</a>...<br /><br />overall , it was a great laugh , great fun and great nite!!!<br /><br />HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :D<a href="http://www.yamamorinoodles.ie/"></a>Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-35819528244258633492007-01-21T14:43:00.001-08:002007-01-27T13:27:20.705-08:00A Story of a Poor Medical Student..Literally poor!The title says everything.. Its the 3rd month of my JPA allowance and im broke wif unpaid bill..i've gotta do sumthing.. first of all , vodafone is sucking all my money out!! I better get a meteor simcard and change voda to prepaid instead..but i dun have a second phone to put my meteor simcard in..so i had to get a new phone! And I've got a new phone!!! well after getting some money from the bank of course.. thank you Bank Of Ireland.. hehe..<br /><br />So , introducing my brand new meteor phone...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_qHdgtpNGotI/RbPwY2b1qSI/AAAAAAAAAA8/Dvaf0Vjyuy8/s1600-h/nokia6070.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_qHdgtpNGotI/RbPwY2b1qSI/AAAAAAAAAA8/Dvaf0Vjyuy8/s320/nokia6070.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5022622319168039202" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbP3fXMCtG3d3ssXi30eEjgPBWTnzv3lgGKrDWFNXw7S3jceAJIJPCeDiptnoijCwqnUb_CGl0zW-3IcskY45D35tp9GYRihYmJpYoFaO-Crai0s-y6SWF4G_6CBCnD4aOtFbEcKddEeiF/s1600-h/nokia-6070-00.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbP3fXMCtG3d3ssXi30eEjgPBWTnzv3lgGKrDWFNXw7S3jceAJIJPCeDiptnoijCwqnUb_CGl0zW-3IcskY45D35tp9GYRihYmJpYoFaO-Crai0s-y6SWF4G_6CBCnD4aOtFbEcKddEeiF/s320/nokia-6070-00.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5024824860001806642" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Yessss... its Nokia 6070!!! It has FM radio and a camera (VGA tho..) .. just what i need!!! It has been almost 4 yrs since i've got a new phone.. so i am still a bit "jakun" wif this new phone.. messing around wif it , taking crappy pictures , listening to the radio when im out , having a phone conversation.. handsfree!!! hehehe..<br /><br />But i still keep my old vodafone blue Siemens phone.. in fact , i took a picture of it and put it as wallpaper on Nokia! It has done alot to me , lotsa memories and sentimental values...<br /><br />Afterall , i am a true Aquarian...Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-27804927064853453182007-01-21T14:03:00.000-08:002007-01-21T14:42:51.953-08:00Merry Christmas in Nancy!!just a recap on how i spent my xmas in nancy..<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8mk7e6Npcxb6fgdpTTjsc2N_i6Fdno_Xcy9MhSgr5DymCWb0S26dUQX28DX035xiO0blkYMaQukRzELuwJNElNnhucWVJKYgSM3Bwp1TomPDd-mCjizZrAosd1Q81zevSEQqZGBsXbmCO/s1600-h/brownteam.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8mk7e6Npcxb6fgdpTTjsc2N_i6Fdno_Xcy9MhSgr5DymCWb0S26dUQX28DX035xiO0blkYMaQukRzELuwJNElNnhucWVJKYgSM3Bwp1TomPDd-mCjizZrAosd1Q81zevSEQqZGBsXbmCO/s320/brownteam.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5022612140095547618" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br />Here are the members of the brown/maroon team.. We had to synchronize the color of our outfit so that Syl would wear that nice shirt :P<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaqc5SNns5YoUT3Drt548OB83u3A6yRvwUsu-xG4bEugcsa59cy8zbZ0nO3etUYpeNPbf1OOHHQGxCbs42Q1tX2JD4P3lzzQI6eHHbiLqsrvMBiuESLO463CwxQjUrXWUkdDZvcHD7b6jP/s1600-h/heroes.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaqc5SNns5YoUT3Drt548OB83u3A6yRvwUsu-xG4bEugcsa59cy8zbZ0nO3etUYpeNPbf1OOHHQGxCbs42Q1tX2JD4P3lzzQI6eHHbiLqsrvMBiuESLO463CwxQjUrXWUkdDZvcHD7b6jP/s320/heroes.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5022613742118349042" border="0" /></a><br />After a nice dinner , everyone looked happyyy... lets open the presssiieess!!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9XLNe_m4ZLbYoG_lc_YnhedHCz1DrMwoOHTqrdKYJBHPbjiNduh64VZL787TwAxvw4WwtfhbpntX2z_rkr6E2S8DB36oiKaiCj2__GTfaoEmz45QcWefTZ6Gv0q3Yeyl-B36CxYFI4D1_/s1600-h/luncheon.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9XLNe_m4ZLbYoG_lc_YnhedHCz1DrMwoOHTqrdKYJBHPbjiNduh64VZL787TwAxvw4WwtfhbpntX2z_rkr6E2S8DB36oiKaiCj2__GTfaoEmz45QcWefTZ6Gv0q3Yeyl-B36CxYFI4D1_/s320/luncheon.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5022614949004159234" border="0" /></a><br /><br />This was after luncheon on xmas day wif Syl's father and relatives at a beautiful fancy restaurant .. love the appetiser!! yummyyy... it was worth waking up early in the morning and getting ready in 5 mins afterall! Im getting good at doing my make up now ;)<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwIBmHMJ5Uq2l9r1RRQr5ZkQaKhAmxKRuhIIuCHgVxBGr-vs4QXA5-xiU1x5dySlVb_C6zRVG57G8nrgaSRyA4zZj8GnuyQvm7lNC2RMUe0o3WlmqzpO9rPpo3jA5sQiPR61XuYjvh14jL/s1600-h/bowling.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhwIBmHMJ5Uq2l9r1RRQr5ZkQaKhAmxKRuhIIuCHgVxBGr-vs4QXA5-xiU1x5dySlVb_C6zRVG57G8nrgaSRyA4zZj8GnuyQvm7lNC2RMUe0o3WlmqzpO9rPpo3jA5sQiPR61XuYjvh14jL/s320/bowling.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5022617199567022354" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Still have time for bowling!!! hehehe..Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-32975817619117243162006-12-10T07:53:00.000-08:002006-12-10T07:56:30.783-08:00A Familiar FaceFriday morning , we went to Synge Ward looking for an endocrine patient.. one of the male nurses gave us a name , T.B. " nice young guy... wif tattos all over " I started to chuckle..thinking that it sounded so judgemental.. usually guys wif tattoos are generally nice and very cooperative in terms of giving history and doing examination on em.. The male nurse looked at me and smiled , probably wondering why i was chuckling :P<br /><br />So we went in.. the name sounds familiar tho.. and saw the guy.. gossshh he looked soo familiar..Jean took the history.. i stood there looking around.. saw his tattoos , those looked familiar too.. and saw his abdomen.. hmm.. i think i've examined that abdomen before!!<br /><br />When i got home , i was so tired .. ate sumthing and found a spot to take a nap.. on the sleeping bag in front of the TV! I tried to doze off but i kept thinking of the guy...where the hell have i seen him before??? it must be sometime ago.. i tried to put everything together , from the history and from my previous rotation.. but nuthing came together realllyy.. hmm..its not easy to forget a 22-yr old male unemployed wif tattoos all over his arms.. it took me a while before i could get some sleep.. but it bothered me even in my sleep!!! I woke up and my mind was still on that subject..<br /><br />I couldnt help it , I really need to talk to someone about this.. otherwise it could haunt me for a loongg time! so I mentioned it to my housemates.. they suggested to go back to that patient and just ask him if i've ever talked to him before.. sounds reasonable.. but its weekend already! he might have been discharged by monday! hmm.. even if he's not , what would i say to him??<br /><br />I've to find a way to let these things go...Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-51981795723085424372006-12-09T14:00:00.000-08:002006-12-09T15:22:03.657-08:00The Black BagFriday afternoon at St James' Hospital , me , satoko and jean decided to stay and see a patient with hypercortisolism.. how kewl is that! But we had to get some lunch first.. i was soo hungry that i could eat a whole coowwww!! mooooo....<br /><br />From canteen to the main hospital , there's a loongg curvy hallway before we reached a T junction.. left is to the main hospital.. right to somewhere we have never been before.. the hallway looks quite dodgy, no heater , and there's the archive...friday afternoon , the hospital was very quiet and calm..<br /><br />As we reached the T junction after a late lunch , there was a hospital staff walking , passing in front of us.. behind him was a hospital trolly.. wif a big black bag on it.. in a very slow motion , so classic , goin further away from the hospital.. the three of us were so quiet in shock , no one made any sound.. at the other end of the trolley was another hospital staff.. looking at him , he gave us a very cynical look with a wry smile...<br /><br />We continued walking towards the hospital, no one gave any comment till after a few meters away from the trolly..Then only everyone started talking! "oh my gooddd... that was scaarry!! " Then jean said innocently , " u know what... they said in hospitals there r many free spirits..." Thanx for reminding us , jean!!<br /><br />I guess we have to start getting used to this :/Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-68594739808591030192006-12-05T15:03:00.000-08:002006-12-05T15:14:34.472-08:00Another wedding song for me :~)<span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">The Rose ,<br />by Westlife<br /><br /></span>Some say love it is a river</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> That drowns the tender reed.</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Some say love it is a razor</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> That leaves your soul to bleed.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Some say love it is a hunger</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> An endless, aching need</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> I say love it is a flower,</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> And you it's only seed.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> It's the heart afraid of breaking</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> That never learns to dance</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> It's the dream afraid of waking</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> That never takes the chance</span><br /> <br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> It's the one who won't be taken,</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Who cannot seem to give</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> And the soul afraid of dying</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> That never learns to live.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> When the night has been too lonely</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> And the road has been too long.</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> And you think that love is only</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> For the lucky and the strong.</span><br /> <br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Just remember in the winter</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Far beneath the bitter snow</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> Lies the seed that with the sun's love,</span><br /> <span style="font-style: italic;"> In the spring, becomes the rose. </span><br /><span style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="font-family: lucida grande;">Huhuhu... isnt it such a beautiful song??! Depressing weather + the time of the month + this song , i have tears in my eyes!!!!<br /><br />so , i am the seed.. and who's gonna be my sun ? maybe i'll be a seed for too long under that bitter snow till i'm all frozen and rotten! hua hua hua<br /><br /><br />well definitely im gonna play this song on my wedding day.... :~)</span></span><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-style: italic;"></span></span><br /></span>Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-87437986864986778302006-12-02T15:58:00.001-08:002006-12-02T15:58:29.669-08:00Back in Dublin , Back at SchoolI certainly missed the first 2 days of tutorials.. some of them were cancelled so didnt miss much..<br /><br /> its so typical that u turned up for a tutorial early in the morning.. the next thing u know u've been standing in front of the ward for almost 15 min and still no sign of the reg or SHO..someone tried to bleep them.. no answer.. waited for another 30 min.. then everyone just decided its not gonna happen :/<br /><br /> i saw a few patients.. including a fireman but he's already in his 40s.. we had to do neuro exam on his left leg coz he has lower back pain , weakness on the leg.. he was so proud of his quads , all his exercise has paid off afterall!<br /><br /> one particular patient has a very interesting background..however , it was so difficult to finish my history coz he kept interrupting me with his questions about liver disease! yes he was a medical doctor indeed!! its so unfair to give us such patient coz i know medical staff are poor historian!!! i know i will be! but looking at the bright side , he taught us about the treatment and management and what to look for in someone who has Chronic Hepatitic C (thats what he has)<br /> he's russian and talked very soft , sometimes i just couldnt understand what he's asking me.. i think it was obvious on my face that ive lost my temper .. towards the end of the history, he started to loosen up , making jokes and we had a few laffs ! i saw on his bed a few pieces of papers with his handwriting , scribbling what appeared to me like a short story or a blog or maybe he's writing an autobiography of himself...hmmm..<br /><br /> coming to social history.. he said he lives in ireland for 6 yrs working in construction business.. i mean u have a medical degree.. why r u doin construction work!!! he said ooohh there was a problem in russia.. and i asked what problem? .. he said aahh its a long story , u can come back in the evening and i can tell u my story for 24 hours.. u will crrryyy when u hear it!<br /><br /> interesting.. curious i am! so after finish everything , we looked up in his chart.. just to complete our history.. there are a few points that are contradicting.. very inconsistent! then we found piece by piece of his story!<br /><br /> he was an obstetrician and gynaecologist in russia.. he told us that he was an assistant professor teaching student.. no wonder!!! then the best part comes.. in one of his GP / hepatology consult letter said he was in prison back in russia due to political reason ( i wonder whyyy... ) and was tortured with needles and thats a possible of getting hep C! but he told us ( and the doctors ) he had a blood transfusion when he was a child ( which also can also be a medium of getting hep C )..<br /> geezz.. he reaally has an interesting loonngg story to tell us!!! Jean really wanted to come back and listen to his story .. but how r we gonna approach him?? hey could u tell us about ur story in russia?? that doesnt sound rite... but if he is writing a book, i would definitely get one copy of it!<br /><br /> well thats the story of my interesting patient! its a mind boggling.. kept me thinking about it for the whole evening!!Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-49574944184560028952006-11-25T16:01:00.000-08:002006-11-25T17:11:20.348-08:00How could i miss it!!all this while everyone thought that my flight back to dublin from eindhoven is on sunday.. this was what happened today ..<br /><br />saturday morning ( 12 is still morning for me during hols ) - breakfast , kept sara occupied , bag still not packed yet..<br /><br />saturday 1 pm - chillin out , playin wif sara again.. watching the magical legend of leprechauns ( hmm reminds me of why i wanted to come to ireland in the first place! )<br /><br />saturday 4.30 pm - went out to get fries and kroket from the neighbourhood..<br /><br />5pm - eatin lunch + dinner , patrick asked me what time is my flight tomorrow.. i said i think at 1pm , i'll check later<br /><br />6pm - checkin my email.. click on the itineary .. tiu tiu tiuuuuuu coming back eindhoven-dublin 25 nov FR 1965 13.35pm !!! hahahah tooo laaatteee!!! i just couldnt believe what im seeing.. caca looked at it too and it still says sat 25 nov 13.35 pm!!!<br /><br />i was just too shocked to look for another ticket ... so patrick had to buy me one.. huhuhu..<br /><br />2.07 am - bag still not packed yet.. hihihi.. can wait till monday nite :P<br /><br />so there u go .. another reason why i would be a hazardous doctor.. well at least i could pester sara a lil bit longer!!! heheDoc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-850568809468109760.post-53865328209252480762006-11-21T15:34:00.000-08:002006-11-21T16:22:32.151-08:00Welcome All to My Zone...Finally i've got my own blog! Altho im not yet a doctor.. but i can see my future.. i'll be a hazard to my future patients!!! hahahah.. well at least thats what some of the lecturers and tutors have been saying about us , class of 2007 :) <br /><br /> Yeap.. it seems too soon.. only 5 months left to get the rest of -TOR.. Ive got DOC- after i've passed 2 exams last week , paediatrics and Obstetrics&Gynae.. It was a very stressful month..i had GP exams 2 weeks before the written exam , alhamdulillah ive passed that exam as well ( got 2nd honours! woohoo! ) then came the clinical exam.. everyone was busy buying their suits , i have caca's dark navy blazer which was a lil too big for me last yr but after 2 months in malaysia , hey it fits me nicely!!!<br /><br /> The journey of a final med begins...Doc of Hazardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06488349212806265911noreply@blogger.com2